On Mothers’ Day, of course I think of my own mother. She was a part of my life for nearly sixty years, so there are lots of memories. Through those memories, she is still with me. Mom hated conflict. She could be very stern. She had a knack for getting the cooperation of her many children. Her laugh was wonderful. There were times when we clashed, and incidents when I thought, “I will never do that when raising my own children!”
Mostly, when I think of my Mom, my memories settle on the last precious months of her life. Then, knowing our remaining time together was short, I grew to know her better and appreciate her more than I ever had before. I remember her patience, and goodness, and strength.
I think of my grandmothers, too, on Mothers’ Day. My father’s mother was Otelia. We never knew her, as she died when Dad was only thirteen years old, but we certainly knew about her. A photo of Otelia always held a place of honor on top of the dresser in my parent’s bedroom. Sometimes, mostly around holidays, Dad would talk sadly and nostalgically about his “Ma.” Now and then he’d look at my sister Brenda with a grin for a particular expression or behavior, and say, “That puts me in mind of my mother!”
My mother’s mother was Thelma, though she was just “Grandma” to us. She lived next door to us so, though she died when I was only ten, she was a big part of my early life. She had a dog named Brownie. After he passed on, she had a beagle named “Sputnik.” “That’s Russian,” she told us, “it means “outta this world!”.” Later, she got a Chihuahua, and named him “Pancho Villa” after the Mexican revolutionary general. She raised rabbits and flowers, and kept a small vegetable garden. She could feed squirrels out of her hands.
In the summertime, Grandma Thelma, in her crisply-ironed slacks and red lipstick, wafting with the scent of Chanel #5, would come over for a visit. She’d bring popsicles for the kids. Mom would hand them out and send us all outside. Then, Grandma would sit down, cross her legs, and pull a cigarette from her pack. She and Mom were going to enjoy a private conversation.
Grandma Florence was my Dad’s stepmother. Though she never had children of her own, she took on all six of my grandfather’s grown-and-nearly-grown children. All of their children were her grandchildren, and she never missed a single important event in our lives. Though she and Grandpa spent winters in Chicago and summers on Beaver Island, they visited whenever they could. It seems that Grandma Florence was almost always present for baptisms, confirmations, weddings and reunions, and always with her camera at the ready to document the event! When she couldn’t be there, we were sure to receive a card and a letter.
On this Mothers’ Day, though, I’m also thinking of my daughters. First, because they are each excellent mothers themselves, but second – and mostly – because their presence gave me the opportunity to be a mother. And, though I’ve lived a long time, with many memorable occasions and several accomplishments, motherhood has been, hands-down, the very most meaningful undertaking of my life!
There were challenges, of course. There were days I wished for simply enough time to finish a book…or even get a shower! Sometimes, motherhood seemed like a never-ending job, with very little payoff. Certainly, I made bad decisions along the way. It seems like I spent most of my time either second-guessing myself or feeling guilty. Still, through it all, being a mother brought me more of a sense of fulfillment than I have gotten from anything else I’ve done. And along with it, so much joy! So, on this Mothers’ Day, I honor my daughters, for providing me the chance to take on the most important and rewarding job of my life, that of being their mother.