It’s not that I haven’t accomplished anything today. Actually, that list is quite long and runs the gamut from regular daily chores to stripping beds and washing blankets; from sealing several collages in my studio to making home-made dog treats. The problem lies not in what I’ve done, but in what I haven’t done.
Procrastination is not without it’s benefits. When trying to avoid one activity – in this case, rearranging my kitchen to fit my new 32-drawer apothecary cabinet in it – I can find tremendous energy for many others. So, I’ve answered letters that have been waiting weeks for my response, I’ve read a magazine that has been sitting unopened for two months and I wore the dogs out with two long walks.I’ve gone through old photos; I’ve cleaned out old files. I have dog treats baking and my bread rising, soup on the stove and fresh sheets on the bed.
My fear is – no, not a fear, but sure knowledge – that once I start emptying shelves, I am going to be in an even bigger mess. I can’t figure out how to do this in an organized way. If the cabinet was here, I could be filling the drawers and putting them in place. As it is, I’m filling the drawers and moving them from my laundry room floor to my dining room floor. The mess is just spreading! The cabinet cannot be brought in until the old cabinets…and counter-top, shelves and table…are moved out. There is no garage. It’s winter! This stuff is heavy!
So, now it’s almost seven PM. Time to feed the dogs, get myself a bowl of soup and a glass of wine, and re-think this project.