Still Here


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With warmer temperatures and Spring breezes, the snow is melting fast. Off the path and into the woods, though, there are traces of winter, still.

The ice breaker came in to the harbor here on Beaver Island, and our ferry boat has now made three trips to the mainland and back, right on schedule. There is still ice out there, moving around based on the wind direction and currents. Sometimes it jambs up the north shore, sometimes crowds back in to Paradise Bay. It will all be gone soon.

My old dog is still with me, though I watch her closely for the signs of discomfort. She has learned to get along quite well walking only on three legs. The other day, in fact, she managed to tear a giant hole in the back of my garden fence, then leap through it in an effort to get to a cat that was lounging on the roof of the garden shed. The weather has been pleasant, and she enjoys being outdoors while I’m working in the garden. When her time comes, I’ll bury her in that spot in the front yard near the snowball bush, where she sits right now in the sunshine.

I’m still here, though I haven’t been visiting or writing on this site much.

I’m still struggling with incorporating my new enterprise into my life. I have neglected my personal pursuits – my studio work, this blog and my other writing – for the necessary tasks involved in putting out a news magazine. It’s a matter of shuffling things around, until a balance is reached. That’s what it takes whenever a new challenge comes into my life. It doesn’t seem to matter what brings the change, or how welcome it is…there is always a struggle.

The thing that has brought this particular endeavor beyond the realm of a normal transition is the #&@*%# computer. Actually, the combination of a new computer with a different program and – entirely new and foreign to me – design software. I have sat in front of the screen trying – unsuccessfully – to make it work until I was ready to weep…until I was weeping…day after day, until I was ready to throw the whole shebang out of the second story window.

I came to the conclusion that I cannot do this alone.

It is hard to admit defeat!

Harder still – for me, at least – to ask for help.

Difficult…but necessary.

With little to offer in the way of compensation for the trouble, I asked. Several people went out of their way to assist. We are getting it together! As soon as details are worked out, I’ll have more information.

Meanwhile, I feel like I may be getting a little bit of my life back!

And I’m happy to be back here!

About cindyricksgers

I am an artist. I live on an island in northern Lake Michigan, USA. I have two grown daughters, four strong, smart and handsome grandsons and one beautiful, intelligent and charming granddaughter. I live with two spoiled dogs. I love walking in the woods around my home, reading, writing and playing in my studio.

8 responses »

  1. I am glad you are still here! It’s such a balancing game, isn’t it? I am still struggling with how to get it all done! Glad your dog is hanging in there too.

  2. Cindy, it was nice to read a post from you. I’m so sorry that you’ve been having computer problems. I can fully understand your frustration. I still have a problem now and then with my HP Windows 7 which is not a complicated program. I have problems when I want to write in Windows Word and now I have learned that I need to get a simplified program that is just for writing, But, I don’t want to spend the money so I’ll keep writing in Word Press.

    Everything will eventually come together for you. it is still a new ball game for you with the magazine and I just know that you are good in the job. That’s where you needed to be years ago.

  3. Hi Cindy! Luckily I’m having computer problems at work today (department problems, not general internet), because that gave me a chance to read your post. Such a busy lady you are – I hope you master the balancing act for your own peace of mind. Good luck, and I’m throwing happy wishes your way.

    • Thank you for the good wishes, Sara! I miss this place, and all my dear friends here. When I don’t have time to write, it seems I still manage to find time to complain! I have to work on that!

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